My name is Susan and I am 44 years old. I have two children, James, 11 and Katrina, 18. I came from a good home and my parents are both respected members of this community. I graduated at 16 from an all-girls, private, Catholic high school.
I began drinking at 14, but did not realize I was an alcoholic until much later. My life has consisted of poor choices and lack of responsibility. My final bottom was getting drunk one day and taking prescription pills. This led to a broken arm and waking up in the hospital as I was going in to surgery. I almost died and I needed help. God was not in my life. I had tried recovery programs before, gone to meetings, to prison and to jail, but nothing worked. I needed a life recovery program, not just a drug and alcohol treatment program.
I had heard about Genesis Acres from people who lived at my apartment complex and finally was able to get in after about a year. I was not prepared for what I was getting myself in to. Coming in to the program I had a dependence on prescription drugs, I had been sober for a year, but was not in recovery. I suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder, depression, anxiety, grief, trauma, and agoraphobia. I lived in pain both mentally and physically. I had no hope of my life ever getting better, but was willing to try anything at this point.
My son came in here angry with extreme behavior problems. He was violent and abusive and nothing worked with him. His dad died and he had so much anger that was unresolved. I really thought our lives would be like this forever, but maybe this program could offer some kind of hope.
The change in both of us was nothing less than miraculous! We have become Christians and have found God in our lives. I am now able to get up in the morning and get my son off to school. I am consistent with him and he listens to me and behaves. It was not an overnight change, but we have been here over a year and the change is sticking and working. James and I have friends now, we have support. We are not alone anymore. He and I know we are loved and accepted and that we are not bad people, not complete failures.
My relationship with my daughter was strained to say the least, in fact with my whole family. They were ashamed of me and had given up on me. My daughter now comes to see me every week. She goes to church and celebrate recovery with me. She stays with me every weekend. My parents call me just to say hi and tell me that they love me. I have respect again.
I am so grateful to have had this opportunity. I have no desire now to use drugs or alcohol. I do not want to go out and mess up my life again. I want to be a good mom, who is sober and doesn’t sleep all the time because she took her pills again. I want my children to know me like this.
Now my life is completely different. I don’t live in fear and anxiety all the time and I don’t need to block the world out. I want to be a part of the world, a productive member of society. I want to do the right thing and not break all the rules. It took me a long time to get here and now I am even going back to school. This program is the best thing that has happened to me in my life and I will be eternally grateful for the miracles that have happened to me and my family.